Archive for May, 2011

May 26, 2011

Thankful Thursday

Thankful for a little girl who found her feet, supportive friends who listen and give real advice, for a fantastic husband who supports every ridiculous notion I throw out there and for a much-needed 4 day weekend…… 

Life isn’t always perfect but today I am thankful for these things!

Have a great Memorial Day weekend! – Much love – Christy

May 21, 2011

Mama Bear

So becoming a parent surprised me in many ways.  I was surprised that my body could function with such little sleep.  I was surprised that I could so fully love someone so quickly. I was surprised that life could be turned upside down by a mere 5 lb 1 oz “joy”.  I mean, who knew poop could consume so many waking thoughts? If you are childless, this seems ridiculous but after having said child you will google amount, color, consistency of poop on a weekly basis and the fact that there are about 50 jillion hits allows you to seek comfort in the fact that you aren’t alone.

Anyways, I think the thing that surprised me the most was the instinctual need to protect her. Now I’m not talking about the need to make sure the outlets are covered or the need to google the proximity of child predators (although those are there too)  but this gut reaction NEED to soothe her – to save her when she starts to panic – to ensure that her world is a comforting safe place.  I knew I would feel this way to an extent, but never could I have imagined how powerful it is. It’s hard to put into words…. Small example – we are out and there are numerous family around that love LK and have raised many children successfully!  LK starts fussing – I know it’s because she is tired of being handled – sometimes all she wants is to play on her own – BUT the family members don’t know this because they aren’t around her as much as we are. So they try walking and bopping and singing – LK gets a bit louder – then it’s concluded she must be hungry or wet or hot…..the whole time I am literally having to bite my tongue and keep myself from racing to swoop in and make it better.

I restrain myself because….SHE IS FINE and I know that unless I let them learn her they will never be able to know she just wants to be put down.  I don’t want to be the only one who can soothe her nor do I want to be known as the controlling one. I want to raise a happy adjusted baby that isn’t stuck to me like glue –  but that mama bear instinct is the hardest instinct to suppress in the moment. It brings about this anxiousness to rip her from the hands of the “perpetrator” and, unfortunately, makes me more rude than I have ever been. Aside from that, it’s hard to watch her flailing unsuccessfully trying to move or trying to get the sippy to her mouth – frustration mounting.  I want to pick her up – give her a drink – but I know that what will help her is to not.  To sit there on my hands and let her try until she does it herself. I am learning and letting go when necessary, but I’m human, there are times that the mama bear comes out and all self-training is out the window.

The knowledge that this instinct isn’t going away but will only get stronger is terrifying. I KNOW she will experience pain and heartbreak and discomfort.  I KNOW she will lose the big game and fail a test she studied hard for.  And I’m KNOW it will kill me – in fact if the love continues to grow at this rate  – I am positive I wont live past age 2. BUT if I do happen to make, it will be my goal that no matter what happens in her life Chris and I will be the safe place and we will do our best to teach her how to handle these situations and come out better on the other side.

And just a warning, if anyone tries to hurt her – you better watch out – this mama bear is MEAN.  🙂

Much Love – Christy

May 18, 2011

Wordless Wednesday

Seriously – she is the cutest kid ever….and I’m totally not biased 😉

(photo taken by the talented Lindsey Murphy)

May 13, 2011

TGIF!

Reaching for the camera!

Its FRIDAY folks! Get Happy 🙂 

I’m not sure exactly why I am so excited… Lila gets up and goes to bed with the elderly (maybe even earlier) so sleep is not really an event I can look forward to.  But there is something about having 2 whole days of nothingness – 2 days where the week day routine can be thrown out the window – tha makes me ridiculously giddy. I also get to see this cute face for a few more hours each day which makes it that much sweeter  🙂

This weekend our half mary training plan hits the 5 mile mark.  From this point on we have no run shorter than 4.5 miles and our weekend runs go up by a 1/2  mile each week….we are trying to decide how to handle these – as summer progresses and our long runs get longer we are going to have to do our runs early (because running after 9 is like running on the surface of the sun)- but I don’t think Lila can handle an 8 miler in the stroller. The torture of running 8 miles on a Saturday morning doesn’t need to be compounded by adding a screaming infant.  Whose idea was this 1/2 marathon?

SO EXCITED!

In other news, Mother’s Day was awesome – Chris was super sweet and exceeded ALL expectations.  He got me a necklace that came in a little blue box – which would have been AWESOME! on its own (seriously so pretty) but he topped that off with a plane ticket to Chicago to visit LB for next weekend!!!! Eeeekkkkk! They conspired and set up an awesome weekend for plenty of girl time….I am THE luckiest girl in the world 🙂 

 I have to step up my game for Fathers Day – which by the way I had to google to figure out the date – (Sunday June 19th people).   Any ideas?

Have a great weekend – Much Love – Christy

May 6, 2011

7 months

Making the decision to have a child is momentous.  It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body.  ~Elizabeth Stone

Lila is 7 months! It has been a month of firsts and I’m pretty sure that this month will be the same! She is so active and so curious – its like she can’t soak up enough! This month was her first roll both ways (which caused a little night-time drama), first two teeth, first unassisted sit, first sippy cup, first finger food, and first night of unswaddled sleep! Whew – I’m kind of exhausted just writing it!  

So on the food front she LOVES just about anything. She is definitely our child.  She is super interested in eating – if she is in your arms she will literally watch the food go from the plate to your mouth – over and over again.  Almost to the point of making you feel guilty that you aren’t sharing.  We have experimented a bit with letting her eat small bits of food but she is really only into it if you put it in her mouth…she doesnt quite “get” how to pick it up and make it to her mouth.  When she does get it, she tends to shove large pieces in which then causes her to gag.  Definitely a work in progress.  But she loves pineapple and oranges and really seemed to like dry toast but got really frustrated when she couldn’t get it in her mouth.  As far as purees go – the only dislike so far is squash by itself.  We also introduced a sippy cup this month – she still trys to suck on the wrong end some time but I think that is just teething….

Speaking of teething – we have two teeth! The bottom 2 came in together (someone is watching out for me up there!) and she really enjoys biting down on anything that is unfortunate enough to graze her lips….my fingers have been casualties one to many times already!

On the sleep front, the magical milestone of rolling over last month was this months sleep deprivation. Seriously, she would just roll over and lay there like a cockroach (Chris’s words not mine).  She was still in the woombie (swaddle) so she couldn’t really get back over and didn’t know how to go to sleep on her back.   So after one too many nights of going in there just to flip her over we decided we needed to let her learn how to flip back over AND go to sleep on her own.  The only way we knew how to do this was to let her cry it out. So the Sunday after Easter we readied ourselves mentally and jumped in head first – no swaddle and no rocking to sleep. 

It was pretty tough the first night but by night 3 the crying was minimal and by Friday night she went down without any crying! We still have a few nights here and there of middle of the night crying where she rolls over and it takes her a bit to figure out how to get back to her tummy but I’m so happy that she can put herself to sleep.

I really am loving this stage she is in right now, I’m not sure its my favorite, but its pretty close.  I love, love, LOVE that smile that is given a bit more freely these days and love that she reaches for us and gets visibly excited.  I love that she “helps” me feed her and covers us both with whatever on the menu.  I love seeing her sleep with her arms curled under and her little tush in the air. I love that she wants to move so badly but can’t. I love that she runs her hands through her newly sprouted hair while she drinks her bottle and I love the slobbery kisses she is learning how to give. Gosh I love that kid….

Much Love & Happy Mothers Day!

Christy


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